The Breakup Letter

Why does it hurt so bad?

So bad that I can’t even be mad?

Why do I have to be so sad?

Yet through my pain all she can say is “I’m glad”

I hope she hurts, hurts as bad as I do

She didn’t feel the same and I didn’t have a clue

I should’ve known better than to think my happiness could be true

And the last thing we said was a bold and teary F you

I want to hate her; I want her to cry

I’m sick of suffering so all I want to do is die

I want to hate her for the whole week she lied

But instead, all she had to say was “Bye”

I thought I felt the worst but there is nothing worse than losing two in one

I thought she’d stay with me, stay for the long run

I lost my girlfriend and best friend, I didn’t just want someone

I thought I mattered but like she said, she doesn’t trust anyone

That’s my philosophy, I won’t trust anymore, not another soul

Was shattering me part of her goal?

Congratulations, you filled me with bullet holes

I hope you like the heart you stole

Break up over text…what a coward

If you wanted to hurt me, you did, my monsters devoured

Do you feel empowered?

I won’t get you another flower

All the things I did for you, this is how you repay me?

Are you happy now? Do you feel like you’re free?

Before there was a me and a you, I liked it when it was a we

You said you wanted to date; I was happy to agree

For the first time I could say I was happy to be

I finally got what I wanted after three long years

We started dating and everyone gave cheers!

Me most of all and now look, I’m wallowing in tears

You liar; you knew me and all of my fears

How dare you leave me like that and act like you’re fine

I was an idiot to think I could call you mine

Dumb me, I should’ve saw the sign

I should have waited for the classic punch line

For a week you led me on and refused to hold my hand

Come July 5th, you won’t get to see your favorite band

Was this your plan? To hurt me so bad—how grand!

Damn you, this wasn’t how I planned

You called me your wife, didn’t that sound so fun?

Guess what, I’m hurt, congrats babe you won

I always put you first, myself second to none

Stupid dumb me, I should’ve known and took the opportunity to run

Why me? —I’ll ask every day

I guess you were the hunter to my prey

If you didn’t like me, then why didn’t you say?

I guess you wanted to treat me like a cigarette in an ashtray

You made me so happy but now I feel like a fool

Now you’ve got me leaving early from school

That whole COVID six feet rule?

That should’ve been for my heart, who knew you could be so cruel?

What I don’t get is what did I do to deserve it?

Was it that I was clingy just a little bit?

I guess I knew love though I’d never admit

Screw you, you’re nothing but a damn hypocrite

Who are you to break my heart like the one you never gave?

You knew how much it was you I craved

You were my master, I guess that makes me a slave

So go ahead, put our friendship in the grave!

You don’t deserve me, you never did

And I’ve known you since I was a kid

Was it my sense of humor, was it too morbid?

Do you expect a thanks? My back is what you’re awarded

So go ahead, walk away, find someone new

But don’t you dare tell me what you think you knew

You’re wrong. Screw you, your time, sorry, and thank you

You wanna be friends? No thanks, we’re through

When did you get so callous? When did I become the enemy?

Why on earth is your memory still ecstasy?

You pushed me underwater, let me drown helplessly

And to think you ever had an encounter with jealousy

I gave you all the keys; I put them in your weaponry

This breakup, did you mean for it to go so messily?

What you did, the way you betrayed, that should be a felony

I guess you’re the one who lacks empathy

I thought we’d be friends forever, endlessly

But I was wrong; now I’ll live my life separately

How can you sleep? What happened to fidelity?

You didn’t cheat, but you still lost your integrity

I guess I don’t know why you went into cosmetology

There’s only so much makeup you can use to cover up infidelity

You don’t deserve another moment of my time

So, I’ll leave you now with a little rhyme

You screwed me over once, but you’ll learn

It’s my company you’ll come to yearn

I hope you feel it and that it chokes and burns

I hope you realize you’ll never have a friend like me

I hope you see your mistake and that it haunts you at night

One of these days, you’ll regret it, you’ll come to see

You let your mind go to your selfish appetite

Just remember now, this is what you wanted

I hope, with my memory, you’ll be haunted

I can’t say I wish you well, and I’ll forgive

But I do hope you understand the pain you give

There isn’t much left to say

I knew you were never gay

This breakup certainly hurts like a mother

But I know one day I’ll find love in another

Bye from the girl who used to be your friend

Who swore I’d be with you until the end

I’ll move on and find a new best friend

Just you remember the pain of losing the best girlfriend

-Malin N. Hohenberger