I'm Sorry

"I’m sorry for being a burden

I’m not okay I’m certain

But don’t worry

I’m not worthy

I don’t want you to cry

I don’t want you to ask why

It was an accident

You don’t know I’m a masochist

You don’t know I’m hurting

I hide it behind my flirting

I’ll never tell you I’m not okay

You’ll know that day

I’m sorry that I don’t answer

You’re not a necromancer

I’ll be gone soon enough

Just burn my stuff

I’m sorry that I am mean

I’m just begging to be seen

I’m sorry I ever said anything

I don’t need an engagement ring

I have one around my neck

I know I’m a wreck

Though not why you think

Not why I’m crying by the sink

You will never see my pain

Never watch my blood slip down the drain

I’m sorry I worried you

I love you too

I’m sorry for the evenings I stole

I tried to stay in control

I’m sorry for the makeup on your sweatshirt

I’m sorry I ever made you hurt

Please don’t cry I’m fine

The pain to bear is mine

I’m sorry you ever had to hold me

I’m sorry I won’t see what we could be

I’m sorry that I text you too much

I’m going to miss your touch

I’m sorry that you had me in your life

Pretend it isn’t my blood on that knife

I’m sorry for all the nights I lay awake

I’m sorry for all my smiles; they were fake

I’m nothing but trouble

I just couldn’t win the struggle

I’m sorry you ever met me

But now you’re finally free

I’m sorry for everything, for every word

You’ll never know how I said your name slurred

I’m sorry for being alive

For my bad behavior I apologize

I’m sorry I ever took a breath

I’m sorry even in death"

Malin Nicole Hohenberger