I Swear

Is it true that everyone has a purpose?

Then why do I feel so worthless?

Why do I hurt, and no one can see?

A constant thought of what if I would be…

It’s like telling the blind of all the colors

And they weep because they’ll never see the wonders

Telling the deaf the melody of a song

They don’t know, all their life they’ve been strung along

So is it true that we are all needed?

That the world isn’t the same without those who preceded?

For the one-mind the antidote is simple

Our memory in the world will slowly dwindle

Pain is a bet

You either win or fall victim to the threat

The looming figure in the corner

We have no mourner!

We have no memory, not a place on Earth

The answer is nothing when we ask what we’re worth

There’s not a man on Earth who knows the pain

Or maybe it’s just a disease in my brain

Whatever it is, it threatens to overcome

Shh, don’t feel the pain, just let it numb

Soon it will be over—soon I’ll be gone

Maybe once again I’ll see the dawn

Not from down here but from up there

Maybe then God will hear my prayer

Maybe then will it end my despair

I’m sorry, I tried to hold on, I swear.

Written by Malin N. Hohenberger